comparatie diazepamica

e sambata la pranz. toamna. soare si frig cu iz de amigdalita. pe strazi sunt oameni, multi si colorati, de toate varstele si "hramurile". now on to the comparison:
last year:
what the hell are all these people doing out? where are they going? where could they possibly be going at this time on a saturday? why don't the f-ing stay home?! ... what could they be doing home? getting bored of each-other? why am i here?... *cue angst*

this year:
this is nice. this is sunny. look at all the people. aaaw, isn't that baby cute?... it's nice to be out and about during this weather :)

gasiti cele 8 diferente intre cele doua desene =.=

...i cannot fucking believe it: i finally managed to post a placebo pic O.o ... not that it's clear AT ALL... T.T

in other news... really big trouble in paradise. looks like we're ankles deep in crap this time... if it's true, here comes my bad omen, as punctual as clockwork. was i made in switzerland, by chance? can anyone see the "made in" label on my back, please?

bad omen

I woke up today needing a hug. Very badly. It's one of those moods, that gives me goosebumps and makes them prickle. like, you know that sensation, almost as vague as an opinion, that you almost might have known you were going to fall, half a pico-second before you actually did?
I have a bad feeling, that something bad will happen. That i will lose something. that i will fall, and i need someone to be there and catch me. and give me time to pick myself off the ground. i am afraid, because i have not felt like this in a long time, and i can almost swear that it is there, at the very edge of my hearing. the sounds of my world crumbling.

oama cu visul

omul cu visu' sunt eu. bine, e si chestia aia cum ca omul cu visul e fiecare dintre noi, ca toti avem vise care de cele mai multe ori raman doar atat, pentru ca nu putem, dintr-un motiv sau altul, sa le indeplinim (sau sa le ajutam sa se indeplineasca).
but more than anything else, omul cu visu sunt eu. intr-un fel a fost cea mai perversa chestie, cracking my head open in fata unor oameni pe care nu ii cunosc, intr-un acces de sinceritate care m-a speriat. O data pentru ca a existat si in al doilea rand pentru ca a fost atat de bine mascat.
piesa a iesit neasteptat de bine. a fost o saptamana odioasa, pentru ca nu mi-am inchipuit niciodata ca as avea trac. the mere thought that i would be getting up and acting in front of 150 people in club a made my stomach churn and all my lines stuck fast to the roof of my mouth. "i... i... i forgot what to say" - "it's improv theater, BAKA!". things turned out to be not that bad, though for all my love of the lime light, it's hard to decide what i liked best: to fuss around the stage and its actors, taking pictures, or to actually BE on stage. the former, i dare say even now, especially now... but i can't really be bothered to say :)
Fir-ar a naibii de kuso, ca acum imi incarca vitzenia asta pozele. grrrr... nvm, better late than never (said she through gritted teeth)
next day, du-te vino and kumm in concert. nu m-am mai simtit niciodata asa de bine la un concert, PE BUNE!!! *_*
mayhaps it was them, their best concert. but i think it was just me, not caring and letting go. and dancing and yelling, like there was no tomorrow. it kinda wasn't... depends what viewpoint you choose to take...
next week: birthday. next week?! heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelp!!!

bine ati venit in luna mea. detin monopol

imi e greu sa nu iubesc orasul cand arata asa. soare si un frig de mi se albesc degetele, si autobuze si blocuri si copii care arata ca un cross intre ursuleti polari si plushies.
imi e greu sa ma opresc din a zambi pe strada cand totul pare atat de bine. luna asta a inceput bine. desigur, are toate sansele sa se termine rau, dar are tot atatea sanse cat ceva care a inceput deja rau... or something.
mi-e lene si am o fuzziness si o laziness about me... iubesc o imagine proiectata de creierul altcuiva, si ma complac in aceasta situatie. viata e frumoasa, pana una-alta, si pana pe 18 noiembrie va ramane asa. cu piesa vineri, cu concert sambata, cu happy feet pe 17. si cu o zi cu tp astazi. :)