Meme from Senpai!

*blushes in anticipation* Yeepeeeeee.... *cough. is dignified* Let us begin. The SEVEN THINGS meme.

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. quiet dogs
2. fire
3. bugs
4. food poisonings (don't ask)
5. someone close to me dying or being sick / sicker than they are now
6. being in a powerless position when it comes to someone close to me
7. being kept in the dark about something serious that has to do with someone close to me (it doesn't make me angry, just scared, because I /know/ I'm being kept in the dark, so my imagination starts filling the gaps)

SEVEN THINGS YOU LIKE THE MOST
1. Oriental (Chinese/Japanese/Thai/etc) food
2. people (from a distance. They're fascinating, and entertaining)
3. Music (couldn't live without my music)
4. Reading / reading manga / watching anime
5. Travelling
6. Drawing
7. Driving
ummm... I can has 8? Pwease? I /like/ stuff that life offers you. Like unexpected opportunities. Like something out-of-the-blue that turns out better than anything you could have ever planned.

Oh, and I like sex, too! (I feel bad for cheating on the number, but 7 just wasn't enough...)

SEVEN IMPORTANT THINGS IN YOUR ROOM
this is harder than I thought...
1. my iPod, the little dear
2. my Me2You Bear collection from TP
3. the butterfly Senpai gave me for Kid's Day this year. Except for the fact that it reminds me of her, it also has a very good feeling about it, energy-wise.
4. my computer
5. my posters (remind me of certain moments) and paintings (remind me of someone)
6. my BOOKS! *grins inanely*
7. my jewelry (the world is so bleak without a bit of color)

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT YOU
1. I love my crooked front tooth
2. I hide under my desk when I have to make life-altering decisions. It's comfy there
3. I love to smoke, and I'm beginning to resent the fact that I have to hide it from my father
4. I often fall asleep at night while concocting elaborate day-dreams involving myself and my current obsession (like, a manga character, or whatever)
5. I believe that the more colorful my clothes and hair are, the better they hide /me/ from the world
6. My earliest memory is of me reaching up to my father's knee in height. I was trying to get my parents to stop fighting.
7. I have a /horrid/ overall memory. I barely remember anything that happened to me 5 or 6 years ago.
7.5. The quirkier my language and exprimation, the more I'm trying to shirk away from talking about that topic.

SEVEN THINGS YOU PLAN TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Go to Japan (*winks at Senpai*)
2. Go backpacking (or driving) through Asia
3. Have as many children as I can bear before my reproductive system packs it in and goes on an extended vacation in the Bahamas
4. Cook a meal with all my friends
5. See the New Year's fireworks in Australia
6. Live in a house with all my friends (even if for only a week)
7. Go to the North Pole

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN DO
1. Whine (also: moan, bitch and complain)
2. Talk my way out of even the crappiest situations
3. Draw, a little
4. Cook, barely - only crazy, semi-dubious combinations
5. Sing - a teeensy-weeeensy, blink-and-you-ll-miss-it bit. At least I can has vaguely musical ear
6. Love
7. Smile (I've gotten to the conclusion that not everyone can do these things *shrug*)

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN'T DO
1. Dance
2. Write fiction (or fanfiction) ^__^
3. Trust
4. Forgive (or at leat very easily)
5. Give up on a situation until I've been forcibly removed from it (with a crowbar)
6. Understand why some people will consciously hurt themselves, and those who love them in the process
7. Ummm... imagine that there's anything I can't learn to do, given enough time and enough will on my part. (yes, that does sound conceited. However, I trully believe it)

SEVEN THINGS ON SOMEONE THAT CATCHES YOUR ATTENTION
1. their smile
2. their voice
3. the way they carry themselves
4. their shoes
5. their hands
6. their eyes
7. their hair

SEVEN THINGS YOU SAY THE MOST
1. Lmg lmg lmg :D
2. deeeee-moooo
3. Eto.... ano...
4. I don't know
5. Yeah, whatever
6. Come (the fuck) on
7. For the life of me

SEVEN CELEBRITY CRUSHES

I could just fill in this section by listing all the Jrock singers with which I've been unreasonably infatuated lately, but that would make it uninteresting. Let's see if I remember from all the way back, in chonological order......

1. Alain Delon (do /not/ ask)
2. One of the dudes in Roswell
3. One of the singers of Luna Amara
4. One of the singers of Implant pentru Refuz
5. ... i can has cheat, like Senpai? Aoyagi Ritsuka
6. Hyuuga Natsume
7. Ed Elric (bet you saw /this/ coming)

SEVEN PEOPLE YOU WANT TO SEE TAKE THE TEST
ugh... 1. TP
2. Elly (she should really get a blog!)
3. Gabi (I know /she/ has a blog, I just can't remember what it was *hangs head in shame and sorrow*)
4. Tudor

.... and that's about it. The extent of my knowledge and love of people with blogs. (or without blogs, but who should definitely get one. Or several :)))

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The MONTH meme - in the words of Senpai: "bold /your/ month wile copying the whole text, and cross out what doesn't apply".

I took another approach to it. Mostly because my month (if you bother reading) is a /massive/ contradiction unto itself, as well as, at times, redundant. (Jeez, I feel "special" =))...). So I just listed all the atuff as per instructed, and then commented the shazookas out of them. Well, out of most of them. I do agree with... like... two? Maybe three.

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious (not all that much?).

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. and humble. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive (not much, unless they're other peoples secrets). Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners (I just disproved this one). Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

June:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.


AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. - as opposed to /what/ human being?
Difficult to fathom. - maybe...
Thinks forward. - NO. I trip on my own past, and can barely see the future two months from now
Unique and brilliant. - unique - just like everybody else. Brilliant - if you kept me in the sun too long, maybe.
Extraordinary ideas. - the mere fact that there's "a lot" of them (see above) makes them instantly extraordinary, right? /:)
Sharp thinking. - maybe. Sometimes. When it suits me to expend all that energy
Fine and strong clairvoyance. - Oracle of Sparta, from "Meet the Spartans". Hell yeah, that's me all the way!
Can become good doctors. - If I could've mobilized myself enough to study all that Biology, maybe. But it's true, I /did/ want to become a medic at some point in my life.
Dynamic in personality. - yeah, okay. Also known as "emotionally unstable", but that's true.
Secretive. - I could /never/ keep my own secrets, ever ever EVER!
Inquisitive. - yes
Knows how to dig secrets. - are you kidding me? I can be so dense at times that I don't even notice there's anything there to dig for. Besides, am I a mole or something?! *does the Bartimaeus*
Always thinking. - again, as opposed to what human being?
Less talkative but amiable. - oddly enough, I'm beginning to get there. To the "less talkative", at least. Not to the "amiable", because I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve - if I don't like you, you'll get the memo fairly soon.
Brave and generous. - when it suits my mood. Or when I love the person
Patient. - in how many languages can /you/ say "Hell NO!"?
Stubborn and hard-hearted. - tihii, this is just like Senpai's. Stubborn, yes. Beyond belief. I turn it into a full-time occupation. Hard-hearted... what is that, exactly?
If there is a will, there is a way. - Good Gods and travelling cat spirits searching for statues (Inukami reference. You should give it a chance, for the anime equivalent of easy reading), this one is actually right! This is like my life philosophy. And I'm all the more unforgiving of people who act like that is not true, or that can't happen for them, or whatever. You are who you make yourself to be. What the fuck, man, how many chances on this Earth do you think you'll get?!
Determined. - yes. When I get something into my head, nothing, but /nothing/ stands in my way.
Never give up. - "we shall scratch them on teh sofas" =)). But, yeah.
Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. - bloody wrong! Or, ok, maybe right, but who's to say my "provocation" radar isn't as fucked-up as hell?
Loves to be alone. - perhaps the one thing I dread - being alone with myself is a hideous experience, I wouldn't wish it on anybody.
Thinks differently from others. - Thinks differently of what? Differently that what others? In what context?! Does it mean I think with some other organ? Use my haemoglobins instead of neurons? Spew thoughts out of my ears instead of my mouth? *is baffled*
Sharp-minded. - because I'm "Sharp thinking" (see above), right? O.o Redundant much?
Motivates oneself. - redundant with the "will and the way" thingie above. But true
Does not appreciate praises. - oh I /appreciate/ praise as much as the next puppy. BUT: only if I feel I deserve it. Only if it comes from someone I love or from someone that I have deemed objective/qualified to give me the praise. And I'm embarassed by it, because I don't know how to receive praise.
High-spirited. - well, yeah, sure, when I'm not depressed...
Well-built and tough. - :)) have you /seen/ me? Have you counted all the colds and other diseases I caught this year alone?! And well-built is what? 90-60-90? Oh, yeah, I /am/ that... *tries really hard to stifle laughter. Because she is stubborn and determined*
Deep love and emotions. - fuck yeah. Finally, something I can agree with. I don't have many people in my good books, but those I love are fucking sacred to me.
Romantic. - (jab aimed at my loving boyfriend:) daca as avea cu cine, sigur. Dar n-ai cu cine, frate... =)) I love you, tp.
Uncertain in relationships. - oh /yes/. In /any/ kind of relationship - romantic, friendship, even family ties. Because I can never know when you'll find someone better, nicer, sweeter, whatever, than me, and leave me alone. Tell me that doesn't always happen. Come on, I dare you. Tell me. Please?
Homely. - not in my current home. I could be, if I lived with tp... probably. But I get tired of routine relatively soon (comes with the territory, when you have a "dynamic personality" and all that jazz). On the other hand, that will be /our/ house, so I'll be able to regularly change stuff in it, so as not to get bored. Of course, the routine would stay the same. In the end we're all trapped in little cages of our own, and we're fooling ourselves into submission *brings out Anarchy t-shirt*
Hardworking. - sadly, yes.
High abilities. - I think my English is going rusty (talking about abilities, of course), because the only sense I can make of this sentence is synonimous with "Able to reach high places". Well, I am of average height - bordering - on - a millimeter - taller, so even that doesn't apply. But yes, I can use a stepping stool like no other *beams*
Trustworthy. - I suppose. If I want to be. Who am I going to tell, anyway?!
Honest and keeps secrets. - yes, honest up to the point where it hurts me by biting me on the ass. Keeping secrets = massive redundancy. Again.
Not able to control emotions. - Oh freaking hell yes. Simply yes.
Unpredictable. - I doubt it. For those trained or skilled in reading people, I don't see what would be unpredictable about me. And I won't even wake up one day and bring a gun to school to shoot several of my snotty school-mates and a teacher or three, because, I just finished school :))

DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

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In the best tradition, that was that was that. Knock yourselves out with these memes. If you take any of them from this blog (including the people I nominated at the end of the first meme), drop me a comment or a redirect, so I can amuse myself reading like you (maybe) just have. Even if I don't know you. I actually consider this a good opportunity to meet some of my 88 regular readers, of which I might be persuaded to admit that I personally know 6 or 7, from my day-to-day life. Come on, my dears, please show yourselves. It'd be fun, and it'd cure a bit of the loneliness...

Ok, off we go before I start being mushy. Teh biusiful songs of the day:

Irodori - Shitsujin
Gothika - Alexa

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Actually, there's one more thing. Reading through it again, it feels like I sis-kebabed that last meme - made fun of it, criticized it, etc up the whazoo. This wasn't the intention. If you read between the lines (or between the smart-aleck-nesses) you'll see that I was indecently open and honest and demonstrative. It's just that it's horrendously hard for me to talk about things like those listed above. Because I can't know me. People who see me from outside my head can know me. But how can I ever detach myself enough? Thank you for your attention.