look at the stars!

i haven't been on in a long time. but i guess the laziness has gotten the best of me. i was in the park yesterday, on the little island, sitting on the ground, freezing my butt off and smiling, smoking, telling stories and jokes. it's been a long time since i felt that relaxed around anyone but tp, and in a way it felt like i always imagine feeling when i'm hanging out with my friends. those people that are always surprisingly different from everything i daydream or imagine.

at one point i looked up at the stars, and i remembered that wintery evening years ago, when i looked up to the sky, from a piece of wasteland that you can't even get to anymore, due to a stupid green fence. and i wondered, for the first time, aloud, how many people, right then, were looking up at the sky and wondering how many other people out there were at that point looking up at the sky. and what were they seeing? stars, the dawn, high sun, cloudy evening. and then, the true miracle, i felt a hand shyly slipping into mine and squeezing, just a bit, enough to give warmth and the comfort of a wish come true. yesterday, for the first time in a long time, i felt free enough to look up and ask again. but not aloud. probably never again.

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so i finally got the suvite thing out of my system *grumble*. i suppose this is one thing that is not meant to happen. *humoungous pout*

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it only took us two years and a half, but here we are. today. ladies and gentlemen, welcome to our castles and our dreams!